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Sunday, July 06, 2008
tired of waiting.
wish i was asleep.
wrote a line earlier
stay awake far too late
sleep through the thunderstorm
get up when the sun shines
it's so obvious.
i wish i had gotten my last hurrah. but now i get shut out more than i thought i would. or at least he seems to think so. i'm disappointed. it's frustrating. how could he have me in his bed with another girl in his head, and then her in his bed with yet another clawing her way back to him in the midst of a breakup. poor guy.
i need a person. someone to be my person to call. someone who will take care of me a little bit, and who i can take care of. i am so tired of waiting.
he's going to cut me out completely, isn't he? of course he is. he has his new distraction, who he clearly likes more than me. i don't understand why he went for me at all with her in the background. if he would have always preferred her, just didn't know she was an option, or what.
i was "a woman" to him.
of course, what was he to me? i guess i don't know.
weird to be the dumpee.
i am so tired of waiting.
* posted by claire * 10:21 PM
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