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Saturday, March 29, 2008
after my guests had gone
i cleaned the kitchen
wiped down the counters
packaged up the leftovers
washed the dishes
and no one was there with me
no one was thinking about me doing it
and it wasn't for anyone
it was just running around
just self-preservation
saving myself the trouble in the morning
i had a moment of realization
that were i to never marry
every counter i ever clean
will be only for myself
every dish i wash
will be to eat from myself
every floor i sweep and toilet i scrub
every party i throw and dinner i cook
every piece of furniture i buy
every dollar i earn
it is all mine, for me only
and that was the loneliest i've felt in a long time.
* posted by claire * 12:55 AM
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