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Tuesday, October 17, 2006
really?
really.
feeling
the need
to be
loved
beloved
to love
to be loved
and
not knowing
if anyone
will ever
take me
completely
seriously
whom i
in turn
can take
seriously
back
and once, it was you, and i was mean and you moved on
and once, it was you, and you took yourself TOO seriously
and once, my whole heart, my bleeding raw pumping feeling heart, was yours
and when i tried, just a little, to pull it back
you let go without any fight at all
and now, when two people share that look
that knowing hand on shoulder exchange
that sentence finishing
i remember you
and
my heart is again bleeding raw pumping feeling AND extended out in front of me
but you won't take it
no one will take it
maybe no one will ever take it
so eventually
i might have to
pull it back toward myself
stop the bleeding
heal the wound
slow the pumping
soothe the feeling
and maybe
turn it to
conveniently
a rock
which i can henceforth throw at anyone in rock-throwing distance
and when they drop it
pick it back up
unchanged
and throw it again
* posted by claire * 8:07 PM
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