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Friday, May 23, 2003
we wandered around the university campus last night in the rain. we always hold hands either inside the pocket of his pants or covered by his extralong sleeve... so cute.
and he talked about his future
which he knows nothing about as of yet
he said he feels like a top
moving fast, but not in any particular direction
in fact, he can't look in any one direction for long enough to decide he is sure he wants to go that way
with one exception
me
he knows he wants me
but i don't want him to follow me my whole life
i want him to have his own dreams and his own ideas and his own plans
i feel like the sun
in the center
sucking in the planets to me
as hard as they may try to get away
i keep them safe and sound
but not too close
there are other forces pulling them away
to the ends of the earth
but what happens if the sun suddenly decides to relocate?
mass chaos it seems
but other centers are more stable than i
and stronger
and more worthy
yesterday i started getting excited again
emailed about that travel agency job
looked at work visa information for the... ahem... southern hemisphere...
I'M GETTING OUT!!!!!
maybe he'll come with me
maybe not
sigh
* posted by claire * 9:09 AM
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